you know how it is when suddenly you're capable of retracting statements because you realize that you've grown? it's how i feel. in an odd sort of way. i'm not sure if my (and Lacy's) sudden peak on the obsession scale caused this (by the by, it is lord of the rings) ability. either way it makes me think of what i want. maybe i feel that sort of desire coming back to me. i'm not sure if it's just the idea of a relationship that i want. i feel odd though- because it's the same feeling that i went through a few years ago. i had just told a few people about what happened.. and poof. all desire was gone. but maybe this sudden desire to go back and just say. hey, to whomever. let's go out sometime. maybe that's just movie-inspired. but either way, it's a nice change from how i was feeling. perhaps it was my version of the winter doldrums that plague me. at least this was less harmful as other things have been. in a book we would read: the fog has risen and the sun sheepishly came out to reveal a dewy field.
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